This is what was said to me the other day, while eating the most exquisite handmade truffles on a Chocolate Tour.
I remembered being told the same thing when I went off to college and gained the Freshman 15. Back then, the words made me feel shameful and I began dieting religiously. They also made me feel rebellious and I would intentionally overeat. As I’ve written before, this constant cycle led to a full-on eating disorder for many years.
What are my reactions now?
Mad. Angry. Pissed. Frustrated.
But I also felt sorry for the person who said this. I know they were just expressing concern.
The truth is, “getting fat” doesn’t mean your life “gets worse” just as “getting skinnier” doesn’t mean it “gets better.” I’m the same person at a size 0 as I am at a size 16, with the same problems.
What I should be careful of:
- Caring more about what others think
- Not Trusting myself
- Obsessively counting calories
- Being unable to enjoy one special, sweet day